tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-139686622011-12-30T08:02:43.652+08:00Nothing But Despicablenirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.comBlogger801100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1170164787100526562007-01-30T21:45:00.000+08:002007-01-30T21:46:27.116+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">說<br />去唱歌<br />有人啞了<br />聲音被上吊<br />扁皺細脆淫長<br />我我還有蘇打綠<br />吐不出荒蕪與華麗<br />黏黏滯滯咿咿啞啞喔喔喔喔<br />渾成一團沮喪夾雜失控的嘲笑<br />一直笑一直笑眼淚於是尷尬陪笑<br />可是還不停阿那mv時間到了吧你說<br />是清晨的七點四十四分我等待的一整個夜晚<br />然後天氣愈來愈冷無可抑制的冰冰乾乾的整個人情</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-117016478710052656?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com367tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1169994745213866922007-01-28T22:30:00.000+08:002007-01-28T22:32:25.230+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">當我找各種藉口理由<br />拒絕<br />一起居住、一起工作、一起面對生活<br />是的<br />相信我在搪塞<br />真正的理由<br />你只相信<br />存活於小說<br />我花去二十七個年頭<br />必須相信<br />人間美好的所有情感<br />都不敵<br />尋常日子裡的瑣碎細節<br />終將磨毀<br /><br />所以<br />讓我們珍視<br />彼此的溫度<br /><br />唯有<br /><br />讓我獨居<br />只允寂寞共生</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-116999474521386692?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1169228044838815312007-01-20T01:29:00.000+08:002007-01-20T01:34:04.850+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">違建鐵皮屋佈滿屋頂<br />千萬家棚架像森林之海延伸到日出日落處<br />米亞的樓頂陽台也有這樣的棚<br />倒掛著各種乾燥花草<br /><br />觀察城市天際線日落造成的幻化<br />蝦紅、鮭紅、亞麻黃、耆草黃 <br />天空由粉紅變成黛綠<br />落幕前突然放一把大火從地平線燒起<br />轟轟焚城<br /><br />風雨如晦<br />米亞望見城市天際線彷彿升出厚厚墨苔<br /><br />她的浴室遍植君子蘭<br />非洲菫、孔雀椰子、各類叫不出名字的綠蕨<br />以及毒豔奪目的百十種浴鹽、浴油、香皂、沐浴精 <br />彷若魔液煉製室<br /><br />桌子尚無<br />茶咖啡皆無<br />惟有五個出色的大墊子扔在房間地上<br />幾綑草花錯落吊窗邊<br />一陶缽黃玫瑰乾瓣<br />一籐盤皺乾檸檬皮柳丁皮小金橘皮<br /><br />她的屋子是如此吃喝坐臥界限模糊<br /><br />米亞屋裡溢滿百香果又酸又甜的蜜味<br />像金紅色火山岩漿溢出窗縫、門縫<br />從陽台電梯流瀉直下灌滿寓樓<br /><br />但米亞喜歡自己這間頂樓有鐵皮棚陽台的屋子<br />她可以曬花曬草葉水果皮<br />罩著藍染素衣靠牆欄觀測天象<br />曠風吹開翻起朱紅布裡<br /><br /><br />朱天文 世紀末的華麗</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-116922804483881531?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1166451843226284942006-12-18T22:09:00.000+08:002006-12-18T22:24:03.246+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">什麼儀式操練、動線分離、空間情境<br />都是假的<br /><br />能不能熬夜、假日要加班、超時工作不支薪<br />才是真的</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-116645184322628494?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1166339999547890032006-12-17T15:18:00.000+08:002006-12-17T18:55:43.686+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">看什麼都不順眼<br />做任何事都不耐煩<br />憎惡政治人物與計程車司機<br />等同程度的噁心<br /><br />看新聞或報紙渲染的慘澹弱勢<br />會無可抑制的欲泫<br />幾要垂淚<br />是一種深刻的無能為力<br /><br />腦中堅決存在一<br />從本質上便不存在的桃花源<br />夜夜以此為眠<br /><br />對於世上所有人情<br />都感到絕望的悲哀<br />寄託於美的事物上<br />耽溺於某種偏執性的扭曲<br /><br />好大喜功<br />卻追求曖曖內含光的清平境界<br />所以<br />申請了兩個部落格</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-116633999954789003?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1165242156476570002006-12-04T22:21:00.000+08:002006-12-04T22:23:51.246+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">冷宮正室 重得臨幸</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-116524215647657000?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1159150666864473742006-09-25T10:17:00.000+08:002006-09-25T10:17:46.880+08:00http://my.streetvoice.com.tw/dulldudnirvana<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115915066686447374?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1157439867707807372006-09-05T15:03:00.000+08:002006-09-05T15:04:27.723+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;">生活中充斥著許多細細瑣瑣的零碎事物<br />像是沒對準的柱心線<br />雖不礙事<br />但看了總惹人心煩<br />有些事是不好意思明目張膽地煩躁<br />因為理所當然<br />更多是無可避免<br />有一種「阿不然要怎樣」的困擾<br />所以要是囂張地為這些瑣事埋怨焦躁<br />就會陷入一種<br />像是荒謬的笑話<br />連自己都啼笑皆非<br /><br />比如說<br />鑰匙這種東西<br />一旦擁有它了<br />宣示著權力的消長<br />但總得付出代價<br />於是<br />沾惹到鑰匙以後<br />就像一個牽掛<br />它時時刻刻跋扈地在宣揚它的存在<br />然後<br />我總在找鑰匙<br />在任何一個當下<br />難為情地翻找記憶的角落<br />像是頻頻向它道歉<br />「不好意思 我疏忽您了 請您快現身吧！」<br />極盡卑微能事<br />這樣周章迂迴之後<br />它終於大搖大擺地攤現你熟稔不過的位置<br />給你一記狠刮</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115743986770780737?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1157180511473863772006-09-02T14:57:00.000+08:002006-09-02T15:01:51.486+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/???3??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/%3F%3F%3F3%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/???2??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/%3F%3F%3F2%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115718051147386377?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1156131406234391002006-08-21T11:22:00.000+08:002006-08-21T11:36:46.256+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/6.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/6.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/5.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/5.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/4.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/4.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/3.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/3.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/2.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/2.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/1.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/1.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115613140623439100?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1155319195206469572006-08-12T01:58:00.000+08:002006-08-12T01:59:55.330+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">K：「妳是黃小楨嗎」（囁嚅害羞狀）<br />黃：「恩！」「嗨！」（揮手打招呼）（伴隨嚴重的尷尬）<br />K：「喔！掰掰」（快速逃逸）<br /><br />台大究竟是如何的地方<br />為什麼會孳生出像女巫的店、The Wall、河岸留言這些場所呢？</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115531919520646957?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1155049260920749042006-08-08T22:59:00.000+08:002006-08-08T23:01:00.953+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">願我的父親</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">健康 安好</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115504926092074904?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1154848156161349822006-08-06T15:06:00.000+08:002006-08-06T15:09:16.173+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">流行歌曲從來都是我文學的啟蒙<br />這樣說來<br />像蒙太奇堆砌的歌詞風景<br />甚鉅影響我整個身心發展的感官知能<br /><br />而我唯一<br />能深深陷溺並且感覺被溫暖包裹貼近我的心智<br />大概就是林夕的詞了<br /><br />林夕擅於<br />大量堆疊符號及隱喻<br />來拼湊一個極度華麗又荒涼的境地<br />他總是以冷眼睥睨的態勢<br />嘲諷揭露人性的偽善<br />面對無可奈何的現實<br />他有著絕望的頹敗<br />就像整個天地在崩毀<br />腐爛潰散是你的利器<br />他費心斟酌於鋪陳哀憐淒美的畫面<br />雕琢字句不是他處心積慮的目的<br />那一整個壞掉的人情世故<br />才是他醉心的病態絕美</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115484815616134982?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1154658438703630442006-08-04T10:24:00.000+08:002006-08-04T10:27:18.716+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">為什麼好多人都以自己不適合當公務人員而沾沾自喜?</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115465843870363044?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1154278642353023772006-07-31T00:54:00.000+08:002006-07-31T00:57:22.366+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2577.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2577.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">稱不上理想的下午<br />雖有飽飽的陽光<br />、鎮日沒響的手機<br />還有剪裁合宜的時間<br />但<br />寂 寞 過 溢<br />我逼迫自己無論如何不准接近電腦<br />那麼<br />所有官方說法有意義的事便徹底蒸融<br />時間成了利刃<br />村上春樹、睡眠、鄧麗君<br />與時間拉鉅著<br />我放棄了<br />拿起鉛筆<br />原想畫一個快快樂樂的小白兔<br />但腦中的意境<br />全被黛玉葬花似的絕世淒美填塞<br />所以……</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115427864235302377?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1153757479415475412006-07-25T00:10:00.000+08:002006-07-25T00:11:19.426+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">特地揀了一個夜晚<br />強忍住因為吃完晚餐<br />而排山倒海而來的睏倦<br />然後趕在十一點之前<br />把趴啦趴啦不知道為什麼<br />卻每天都要做的事<br />一口氣什麼也沒想的做完<br />看了一下時鐘<br />心滿意足地撲通<br />一下跳到床上<br />天真的以為<br />明天可以在盈飽的睡眠中被陽光曬醒<br />好整以暇地吃完早餐<br />再以緩慢的速度準時的打卡<br />然而<br />………我 失 眠 了</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115375747941547541?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1153748685903424782006-07-24T20:54:00.000+08:002006-07-24T21:44:45.986+08:00<div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2561.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2561.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> 到底會通往何處呢<br /></span><div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2553.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2553.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> 反正全世界都在催化情人節<br /></span><blockquote><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2551.jpg"></a><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2551.jpg"></blockquote></a><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2551.jpg" border="0" /> <div align="center"><span style="font-size:85%;">沒有比躺上去更適合的動詞了</span><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2549.jpg"><span style="font-size:85%;color:#000000;"> <blockquote></blockquote></span><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2549.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-size:85%;">雖說這棟是園藝系館，但也沒有必要搞成這樣嘛<br /></span><div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2548.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2548.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-size:85%;">好 逆 光 啊<br /></span><div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2545.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2545.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-size:85%;">台大校園到處散置著如建築系館般的「閒置空間」</span><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2539.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2539.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> 哲學系館有個好可愛的名字，他們喚她：「洞洞館」，不過據說要被拆了，因為聯電自以為應該回饋給台大學子，所以要在此處蓋一棟文學大樓，聯電為什麼會跟文學扯上關係呢？<br /></span><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2538.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2538.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> Scarpa真是無所不在<br /></span><blockquote></blockquote><blockquote><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2534.0.jpg"></a><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2534.0.jpg"></blockquote></a><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2534.0.jpg" border="0" /> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">啊！這條椰林承載了多少傳奇<br /></span></div></div></div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115374868590342478?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1153448650725583692006-07-21T10:20:00.000+08:002006-07-21T10:25:49.160+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/dm2%20copy.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/dm2%20copy.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/dm%20copy.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/dm%20copy.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115344865072558369?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1152808620102541862006-07-14T00:35:00.000+08:002006-07-14T00:37:00.116+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">我想<br />就算九月天高<br />王菲也不會再浮躁了<br />所以<br />鎮日播著張懸跟蘇打綠<br />一直深深陷溺<br />不然又要如何呢<br />不要再推著我走了</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115280862010254186?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1152638333077045232006-07-12T01:17:00.000+08:002006-07-12T01:18:53.090+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">那我可以貪心的養一隻鱷魚嗎<br />鱷魚好可愛<br />自給自足地構成自己一個天地的遼闊<br />他討厭自己老愛嘟嘴跟臉紅<br />不過沒關係<br />什麼都可以習慣的啊<br /><br />鱷魚很勤勞<br />他會把濡濕的一元郵票<br />一張一張攤開晒乾<br />三島說：「勤勉是美德耶」<br /><br />鱷魚喜歡吃泡芙<br />但是他不敢去買<br />怕被認出是鱷魚<br />所以老要收買小孩子幫他去買<br />代價是二十塊錢<br />我願意無償替鱷魚買泡芙<br />但是這種熱情<br />只能偶而為之哦<br /><br />鱷魚與外界唯一的溝通管道<br />就是善於暗戀別人<br />據說有一卡車這麼多<br />我不會吃醋的<br />畢竟愛情是全天下最明媚的好風光<br /><br />大家都好關心鱷魚的動向<br />比關心台開案還厲害<br />所以鱷魚不得不低調阿<br />不打緊<br />我可以陪鱷魚鎮日關在房間裡<br />外出只做覓食的動作<br />因為我假日也是這樣過的啊<br />不過可以趁大家午休時間<br />出去曬一下太陽</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115263833307704523?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1152465689568856772006-07-10T01:18:00.000+08:002006-07-10T01:21:29.590+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/Film%20festival.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/Film%20festival.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">一直以為<br />台北電影節是一場盛宴<br />必須以朝聖之姿<br />行集體膜拜<br />然後眾生喧嘩<br />粉墨豋場<br /><br />沒想到<br />這樣的過程<br />彷彿趕集似的<br />揀挑了三部<br />像是不知道對誰交代<br />必須見證<br />盛宴褪去後的狼藉<br /><br />「犯罪檔案」<br />完全不知所云<br />昏茫之際還得忍受<br />莫名奇妙的噁心<br />約莫半場<br />意識終究不敵<br />淪陷潰散<br />在男主角彷彿死亡之際<br />幽幽轉醒<br />於是曲終人散<br />凌亂慌忙<br /><br />「三人冷水澡」<br />處理的是3P<br />另一位男主角彷如掛名幽靈<br />沒有性格<br />沒有劇情<br />只有一個名字<br />還有必須出現的性愛場面<br />男女主角沒有巴黎初體驗的姐弟<br />那樣美的令人心折<br />光是這點<br />就叫人沮喪<br />我只是感覺<br />是一部「交代」的電影<br /><br />「春光乍洩」<br />是聖荃意外的任性<br />逸出計劃之外<br />不過我還是選擇再重溫一遍<br />面對大螢幕的震撼<br />感動涕零<br />愛情終究是最美麗的風景阿<br />梁朝偉對著張震給的隨身聽<br />痛哭失聲<br />那時候<br />所有天地間的雜音<br />匿然無跡<br />我也聽聞了愛情的悲烈<br />然後<br />張震有出席<br />一派的啷噹<br />不過<br />他是好看的</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115246568956885677?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1152356566654242472006-07-08T19:01:00.000+08:002006-07-08T19:02:46.666+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/muji%20copy.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/muji%20copy.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115235656665424247?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1152353756663659902006-07-08T18:13:00.000+08:002006-07-08T18:15:56.676+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;">當生活只剩機器不斷軋出我的偶身之後<br /><br />如果在週末<br />不用加班的話<br />我習慣一個人<br />趁著陽光許可<br />沿著逐漸蒸融的街<br />走著<br />於是可以走到一座圖書館<br />那是在夜夜必須忍受羅斯福路狂爆的噪音之後唯一的安慰<br />我不喜歡買書<br />喜歡借書<br />好比一種物質的消費<br />我可以任意的揀選<br />無需刻意不著痕跡的檢閱價目<br /><br />我於琳琅的書架前<br />費心地滿足物慾<br />常常會遭逢陌生卻又熟悉的情感<br />「鱷魚手記」<br />我不禁翻閱起來<br />陌生的文字反覆召喚逼近的親暱<br />我躲匿一堣<br />熱淚盈面<br />當下我必須借閱<br />那些曾經遺失的<br /><br />讀到鱷魚的部份<br />那是村上的慧黠<br />我慌張尋覓於書架叢間<br />於是<br />「遠方的鼓聲」<br /><br />如果可以的話<br />我能夠按圖索驥<br />溫州街、新生南路、74路公車、、、<br />我可以見見夢生跟水伶嗎<br />書上一位曾經的借閱人<br />斗大的標識著：「精神病院的同好」</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-115235375666365990?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1149261329473264972006-06-02T23:14:00.000+08:002006-06-02T23:15:29.486+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">他顧盼自如<br />費心剪裁句構詞語<br />使之碎裂<br />隻字無語<br />散了一書屍臭<br /><br />他醉心腐敗<br />於是<br />疾病與衰老是他的利器<br />刻陷那樣蝕骨<br />怪不得<br />閱讀起來都要患病了<br />死亡前的風景<br />才是他處心積慮的謬境<br />還未罷休呢<br />此一過渡<br />揚張起乖旦悚異<br />死亡的深度遽陷可怖荒唐<br /><br />政治的動盪<br />人間的聚散<br />離析所有的情感<br />只剩靜默<br />他說：<br />「四月是患病的季節」<br />霎時風雲變色<br />嘩啦啦的大雨<br />浸漬一整個黃梅天<br />我病了<br />在半夜閱讀<br />連珠炮的咳嗽聲<br />逼得我揚書而去</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114926132947326497?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1148231603362491472006-05-22T01:12:00.001+08:002006-05-22T01:13:23.376+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">對於蛇<br />那情色淫穢的符碼<br />滑潤的肌理鱗片<br />揚張起來<br />總是令我感到噁心不快<br />不過<br />今天完全改觀了<br />電視偶然轉到動物星球<br />響尾蛇橫渡沙漠的氣勢完全把我震懾住<br />那靈動的姿態<br />幾乎美得心都要碎了<br />據說<br />蛇為了避免碰觸高溫的沙礫<br />而又無論如何要進行交通這件行為<br />於是<br />必須以最小面積的接觸以及最高速度的滑行來完成<br />物競天擇的結果成就了嘆為觀止的絕美<br />蛇跋涉數千英呎的沙漠<br />身體僅以幾點落地<br />幾乎是漂浮的<br />然後以高速蛇行<br />完全已臻水上飄的化境<br />那畫面是無底的空遠<br />遼沙揚起<br />蛇輕浮掠過<br />一任留白洋灑<br /><br />我完全傻愣住了</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114823160336249147?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1147372121515557752006-05-12T02:27:00.000+08:002006-05-12T02:28:41.550+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">混了建築系出來<br />同儕的畫總是輕忽<br />如今<br />記憶中那些筆觸與色彩<br />在夢的底深處<br />牽縈著過去的美好<br /><br />簡廉青的畫是正統、<br />學院派嚴謹的<br />好似書中翻出來的<br />應該就是那樣子<br />無容置啄<br />我尤喜歡他繪空間的隨手塗鴉<br />是怎樣的體驗呢<br />比如說<br />秩序中的失序<br /><br />仕欣的技巧是無庸置疑的<br />但總有奇異走調的感覺<br />就像這世界太殘酷<br />寧願就這樣瘋瘋傻傻<br />所以<br />總看著他畫漫畫<br />當然<br />也期待著<br /><br />佩玲的畫給我奈良美智的感覺<br />不過更趨收斂<br />一派的天真爛漫<br />卻又弔詭的驚心動魄<br />以童話的基調泣著世界的悲哀<br /><br />東洋呢<br />老見他用力的塗著<br />濃妝豔抹<br />於是粉墨豋場<br />好一個氣勢磅礡<br />連隨手的草圖<br />都是泣鬼神的華麗</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114737212151555775?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1147227759601998922006-05-10T10:21:00.000+08:002006-05-10T10:22:39.616+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">如果你好累好累<br />無論如何的掙扎<br />都是乏力的<br /><br />如果你的情慾飽滿<br />無論如何的釋放<br />都慰藉搓揉<br /><br />如果你渴望輕盈漂浮<br />無論如何的嗑藥<br />都需要催化<br /><br />如果你身陷記憶泥沼<br />無論如何的召喚<br />都令你迷戀自溺<br /><br />那就聽蔡琴吧</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114722775960199892?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1145723978244497612006-04-23T00:34:00.000+08:002006-04-23T00:39:38.396+08:00<div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2391%20copy.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2391%20copy.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2389%20copy.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2389%20copy.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2378%20copy.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2378%20copy.jpg" border="0" /></a> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">這是L'OCCITANE的褓姆皂<br />據說可以舒適妥貼地含合於你掌心<br />經過時間的搓揉<br />可以磨融出好看的稜角<br />大抵是這樣的姿態<br />方正圓稜<br />與身體交歡後<br />泛吐著一身晶瑩的遺液<br />她的美麗自有一股清絕<br />香消玉損後<br />一地的黏滯與濕稠<br />凜拒著<br />於是風化<br />每次的交媾耗蝕著生命<br />在歡愉的高潮中悼念著死亡<br />肥皂原生的宿命</span><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114572397824449761?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1145416528339761712006-04-19T11:14:00.000+08:002006-04-19T11:15:28.353+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">我喜歡肥皂<br />有種艷異淒厲的美<br />日漸形骸消損<br />昇華幻化無數個搓揉出的泡沫<br />泡沫是剔透、轉瞬的<br />只允許短暫逼視<br />接著便人間蒸發<br />迎接更龐大的寂寞空洞</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114541652833976171?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1145201544896542442006-04-16T23:27:00.000+08:002006-04-16T23:32:24.910+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">畢設的時候<br />日子沉悶得緊<br />在系館的日子裡<br />每每與東洋各築堡壘 護主心切<br />東洋偏愛天心<br />我則對天文傾注較大的關注<br /><br />天心是慧黠的<br />信筆寫來 洋灑不泥小節<br />才氣縱橫<br />筆觸總有輕佻 出世意味<br />天文相當入世的<br />陷刻於紅塵泥沼<br />輪迴不得超生<br />但總隔著一層距離<br />冷冷淡漠地<br /><br />天心寫文章像男孩子<br />有種片段 瀟灑的態勢<br />感情總是輕忽<br />沾惹不拂身<br />天文的文章<br />感情總是過溢<br />但冷冰冰的疏離感<br />真叫我愛死她了<br /><br />天心書寫的方式<br />已經掙脫文字的窠臼<br />文字僅僅只是工具<br />傳達即了<br />天文還是相當傳統的<br />對字句的雕琢<br />總有堅持的潔癖<br /><br />這兩位姐妹<br />對記憶命題的書寫<br />對即將邁入三十大關的我<br />有著自溺的青春悲憐</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114520154489654244?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1145108808363283912006-04-15T21:44:00.000+08:002006-04-15T21:46:48.380+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">你說的我都同意，對於「改」這件事，目前是一團糢糊，在基本的對錯(如錯字之類的事)沒得堪正之後，便是內容。關於內容，你所記述的是朱家姐妹再詮釋，以前，大家是企圖尋找到唯一正確的詮釋且相信那一個詮釋的存在而努力著。現在，大家是想像另一種詮釋的可能，雖不相信唯一正確的詮釋存在，但仍然努力著。再來還有關於「改」的就是敘述策略(文筆)，我想這事更沒對錯，而應以目標衡量，看是否具有效率，可是，這是一個流行把作者殺死的時代，文本一寫出，和作者之間的臍帶便被剪斷，誤解是一種美麗的時尚，作者真正想達成的目標是什麼，不是那麼重要了，評論家筆下所說的「作者」只不過是他推動敘述的掌中布偶。<br />如果真要說些什麼，我只能說我閱讀當下想到的事。喜歡朱天心的我，書寫策略卻是字斟句酌，跟喜歡朱天文的你一樣。而你常書寫的內容，總呈現自身陷溺浮世的風景，也意欲表現對「自己陷溺」這回事是自覺的，就像你長了另外一對眼睛在遠方睥睨嘲諷，跟朱天文是不謀而合，還是因為物以類聚，更或是一種隱喻，自戀慾念潛藏其(這個「其」是指你偏愛朱天文這事)中的隱喻。而我呢?是無法透知別人看我的東西感受到些什麼，但我自認為，在內容方面是力求輕盈的，華麗的輕盈，不讓文字負載太重的情感，也從文字中汲取如小步舞曲般的浪漫。喜歡朱天心的我，該承認自戀，還是尋找藉口說，這樣的文學偏好是被教導出來的，曾經也用血淚把紙張染得濕泠泠且紅，那樣的自溺和自以為，直到看見自己國中以來就一直愛戀的女孩寫出輕盈靈巧的文字。如果添補也算「改」的一部分，那我會告訴你，你寫的朱家姊妹我覺得很棒，但總缺少不一樣的，跟王德威那一掛人寫出來的東西不一樣的部分，就是讀者的書寫和作者的書寫之間的對位，一一檢視「一樣/不一樣」的排列組合，就像是聽著巴哈的音樂。<br />你有幾個漂亮的句子，說到我心坎裡了，我摘錄在下面。<br />「畢設的時候，日子沉悶得緊，在系館的日子裡，每每與東洋各築堡壘。」語帶雙關，堡壘意指文學品味，也說教室空間分配。文學品味並不是絕然對立，有曖昧共生的成分在裡頭，就像空間版圖的擴張是偷偷支持著彼此，要說朱家姐妹，也總得先有一個說的對象。<br />「天心書寫的方式，已經掙脫文字的窠臼，文字僅僅只是工具，傳達即了。」</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114510880836328391?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1143836942395223912006-04-01T04:26:00.000+08:002006-04-01T04:29:02.413+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">讓我冉升一顆氣球</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">預兆一迴破滅</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">沒關係 沒關係 <blockquote></blockquote>夢想太奢侈 <blockquote></blockquote>我們作不起 <blockquote></blockquote><br />只要三天一轉 <blockquote></blockquote>匡啷一枚硬幣 <blockquote></blockquote>盈盈飽滿的夢想 <blockquote></blockquote>亟欲升空 <blockquote></blockquote><br />廉價的築夢過程 <blockquote></blockquote>我們殷殷企盼 <blockquote></blockquote>那49位的號碼婆娑出迷離的現世天堂</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114383694239522391?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1142340553821938882006-03-14T20:48:00.000+08:002006-03-14T20:49:13.836+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;">情歌總是蜜死人<br />今天是白色情人節<br />小弟特呈獻<br />甜而不膩 酸而不疼的情歌搧情加溫<br /><br />Tori Amos—1000 oceans<br />多莉的芭樂情歌這首最是婉轉動人<br />Sade—By ur side<br />還記得珊曼莎墜入愛河的婆娑起舞嗎<br />Sinead O’connor—Nothing compares 2 u<br />實在很喜歡這位愛爾蘭光頭女伶,聲音可放可收,從純淨吟唱到忿怒嘶吼,她都經營的煞有情境,行徑又怪異,真是太棒了<br />Death cab for cutie—soul meets body<br />這首歌怎麼這麼好聽<br />Rolling stone—Angie<br />經典怎能不推薦<br />Alanis morissette—precious illution<br />她光靠她聲音的自明性就贏了<br />Kate bush—this woman’s work<br />這位也是超讚的,這首歌描述甫身為人母的焦慮期待<br />Jewel—Foolish games<br />珠兒唱得如泣如訴<br /><br />太多了 改天再推薦</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114234055382193888?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1142073146785971022006-03-11T18:27:00.000+08:002006-03-11T18:32:26.806+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">害我好想學鼓</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114207314678597102?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1141233695669530342006-03-02T01:14:00.000+08:002006-03-02T01:21:35.683+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">各位聽眾朋友們<br />慶祝本台開播<br />小弟特準備了最賤<br />瘋狂王八<br />淫浪卻又不失水準的歌曲以饗各位<br /><br />Prince--Kiss<br />Madonna--Erotica<br />Queen--Bohemian rhapsody<br />Kylie Minoque--Can’t get u out of my head<br />Kate Bush--Babooshka<br />David Bowie--I’m afaid of Americans<br />椎名林檎--莖<br />王菲--浮躁<br />Tori Amos--Ring my bell<br />Cocteau Twins--Blood bitch<br /><br />你興奮了嗎?</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114123369566953034?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1140715977252967332006-02-24T01:30:00.000+08:002006-02-24T01:32:57.273+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">這樣的情況已經持續一陣子了<br />彷彿是一種習慣<br />記憶範圍能力所及<br />模模糊糊地可以追溯到畢設那年<br />到底是怎麼開始的<br />真的是那年嗎<br />一切又遁入不真切的樣子<br /><br />是這樣的<br />入睡前的意識渾沌之際(寤寐?)<br />在此刻的薄眠狀態<br />我便會潛入記憶的甬道<br />那些好遠好遠好近好近<br />的回憶全都回來了<br />姑且稱做夢吧<br />以異常合理之姿鋪陳她的劇情<br />捨不得遺忘的<br />不堪記憶的<br />全都鮮活地搬演起來<br />身陷其中此刻的我<br />必須相信是現實<br />然而<br />記憶太過淒厲或甜美<br />只許我淺嘗<br />我便醒了<br />慘忍的是<br />獨醒的我<br />精神狀態總是清晰不肯入眠<br />卻怎麼也拼湊不出方才的故事情節<br />徒剩瑣碎紊亂的片段<br /><br />曾經<br />我試圖捕捉這段旅程<br />她的為時大抵維持半小時<br />復刻的盡是白花花的青春<br />然而<br />沒有一次<br />可以覆頌她的劇情</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114071597725296733?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1140373414186275102006-02-20T02:13:00.000+08:002006-02-20T02:23:34.186+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">這個問題從我有意識以來就一直困擾著我<br /><br />國高中想的是<br />搧情到甜死人<br />大抵上<br />總有素淨柔軟的床<br />尺寸大概不能太大<br />因為<br />要有人偎在床邊圍著我<br />人數的多寡似乎隨著年齡增長而遞減<br />金黃陽光西洩<br />恰灑在我的側面<br />勾勒出一幅神聖莊嚴<br />我安靜的交代遺言<br />一兩滴眼淚是必要的<br />不過<br />總不致於蠢到潰堤<br /><br />朱天心擔心的是該如何優雅的死去<br />駱以軍對死亡的風景有迷人的演出<br />邱妙津的自死最是令我孺慕<br />東洋說睡到深沉以至死去是最幸福的死法<br />我追求猝死的狀態<br />"it's better to burn out than to fade away"<br />不期待老死的過程<br />那幅晚景大概是<br />又老又醜行動不便<br />什麼事也不能做了<br />每天數著日子等死<br />或是拖著一身病<br />還得麻煩別人<br /><br />猝死有淒厲的美<br />不過還是不能接受<br />畢竟欠太多人人情了<br />不交代一下實在說不過去<br />看來有預謀的自殺是不錯的政策<br />不過<br />自殺可以預謀嗎<br />恐怕都是需要衝動的<br /><br />總之<br />不想麻煩任何人<br />一出生就是個麻煩了<br />最好一個人把事情都交代完<br />然後挑一個不難處理的地方<br />靜靜的等死<br />遺體怎麼辦呢<br />真是瑣碎<br />雇一個人幫我料理後事好了<br />有錢的話<br />應該沒有辦不到的事吧</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114037341418627510?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1140372543497624582006-02-20T02:04:00.000+08:002006-02-20T02:09:03.513+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">自己談自己<br />應該有某種程度的仁慈吧<br /><br />我這個人啊<br />對任何事幾乎都維持著游移的狀態<br />下不了任何決心<br />手腳又不甚靈光<br />好像總是會把事情搞砸<br /><br />可怕的是欲望值又偏高<br />學不會瀟灑<br />鄉愿的緊<br />老是擺盪在無謂的困獸週期<br /><br />擅長批鬥別人<br />偶而也檢討自己(不過似乎無效)<br />練就了利嘴<br />粉墨豋場時還是咿咿喔喔放不開<br />自以為看不慣貌岸然樣<br />得罪了不少人吧<br />依賴別人卻又自私的像個資本階級<br /><br />像我這種人阿<br />最好揀個地方自己一個人躲起來過活<br />偏偏人為群居動物<br />大概是對我最殘忍的原罪</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-114037254349762458?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139723324475385632006-02-12T13:40:00.000+08:002006-02-12T13:48:44.510+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0941.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0941.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0931.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0931.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> 如何不 劉國滄</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113972332447538563?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139689208572625192006-02-12T04:13:00.000+08:002006-02-12T04:20:08.573+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2113.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2113.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2112.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2112.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> 太美了</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">我不忍心用言語著墨<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113968920857262519?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139688800458885162006-02-12T04:11:00.000+08:002006-02-12T04:13:20.460+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2101.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2101.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">誇張與收斂間 進退拿捏 <blockquote></blockquote>於是有了層次</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113968880045888516?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139688503678911412006-02-12T04:02:00.000+08:002006-02-12T04:09:15.326+08:00<blockquote><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2101.jpg"></a><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2101.jpg"></blockquote></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2104.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2104.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">小解慌亂之際 <blockquote></blockquote></span><span style="font-size:85%;">與此端景撞個滿懷 <blockquote></blockquote>此般風景如何計說 <blockquote></blockquote></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113968850367891141?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139688049376115042006-02-12T03:56:00.000+08:002006-02-12T04:00:49.376+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0401.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0401.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0402.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0402.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"><br />太Scarpa了 <blockquote></blockquote>濃濃時間陳腐的味道 <blockquote></blockquote>迷人的構件接合</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113968804937611504?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139687729212531512006-02-12T03:48:00.000+08:002006-02-12T03:55:29.213+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0414.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0414.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0416.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0416.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0418.0.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0418.0.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">實在煞是喜歡鐵絲網這種材料 <blockquote></blockquote>曖昧混沌地界定出空間 <blockquote></blockquote>透與不透間 姿態輕巧 <blockquote></blockquote>舞動起來可以操弄空間韻脈</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113968772921253151?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139686963219429242006-02-12T03:29:00.000+08:002006-02-12T03:45:10.946+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0291.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0291.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0289.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0289.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0292.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0292.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">從橋的兩端可以見證她最迷人的翻折</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">騰起 翻折 凌空</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">這是她最美好的角度</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">不容逾矩 <blockquote></blockquote>那意外的突出觀景平台 <blockquote></blockquote>在一連串的折弄 獲得了喘息 <blockquote></blockquote>於焉生成 <blockquote></blockquote></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113968696321942924?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139679484463672612006-02-12T01:33:00.000+08:002006-02-12T01:38:04.550+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2167.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2167.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2165.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2165.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/IMGP2162.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/IMGP2162.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113967948446367261?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1139487317535574872006-02-09T20:03:00.000+08:002006-02-09T20:15:17.553+08:00離開了如浮游般的捷運生態 <blockquote></blockquote>我以初犢之姿搏命奮闖都市叢林 <blockquote></blockquote>空檔 一檔 二檔 三檔 四檔 <blockquote></blockquote>退檔進油 進檔退油 <blockquote></blockquote>空檔發車 檔位轉速 <blockquote></blockquote>奈何我的肢體不敵負荷虎口的莫測變化 <blockquote></blockquote>新手上路 請多包涵 <blockquote></blockquote>小黃 公車 婦女及老人同胞真是我的天敵阿<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113948731753557487?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1137789136661699152006-01-21T04:19:00.000+08:002006-01-21T04:32:41.756+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">以前有好多好多的憤怒 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">有好滿好滿的文思 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">來不及的也無所謂 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">青春正甜吶 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">現在生活滾進不斷加工複製的機器 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">我得細細檢視 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">才能拼黏一個我 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">放回去原來的位置 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">我寫不出東西了 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">所以 </span><blockquote></blockquote><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></blockquote><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">我偷了回憶搪塞</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113778913666169915?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1137786725197827912006-01-21T03:44:00.000+08:002006-01-21T03:52:05.210+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0315.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/400/DSCF0315.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />如果很貪心的想保留絲絲縷縷 <blockquote></blockquote>色版去背我試過了 <blockquote></blockquote>很多絲縷都會不見 <blockquote></blockquote>只要保留墨汁部份甚至透明度 <blockquote></blockquote>有更好的方法嗎<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113778672519782791?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1137785289010553292006-01-21T03:25:00.000+08:002006-01-21T03:28:09.010+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/400/%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113778528901055329?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1136033572443283902005-12-31T20:49:00.000+08:002005-12-31T20:52:52.443+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/motion??????.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/motion%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">這張圖要如何去背呢</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">要維持動態模糊的透明度?</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113603357244328390?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1135365562437790412005-12-24T03:18:00.000+08:002005-12-24T03:29:19.463+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">一貫的步伐划過捷運人潮</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">乏力的節奏拖著昏茫皮囊</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">我突然想著</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">如果我脫序逆行手扶梯</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">該是多麼精采絕倫</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">就這樣漂移的念頭</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">牽引出嘴角疲乏的弧度</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">kuso!</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">circus也要臣服</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">嘿嘿</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113536556243779041?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1135010951544840112005-12-20T00:40:00.000+08:002005-12-20T00:49:11.606+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">匡啷一聲</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">是誰說過</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">誰又記得</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">所以</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">銅臭可以鍍上一層瓷白</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">揮發昇華</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">忽迅在耳</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">反覆囈喃</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">張愛玲的諄諄教誨</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113501095154484011?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1132296530004608212005-11-19T06:48:00.000+08:002005-11-18T14:48:50.016+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">是這樣的<br />來不及想念<br />便是峰迴的山徑<br />及<br />耳畔絮聒的鳴噪<br />響著<br />我那蒼敗26轉<br />倏忽過境的記憶<br /><br />從來都是過客<br /><br />「太多了」<br />我駝著<br />所以<br />飛翔的時候<br />知覺是遲宕的<br /><br />又怎麼會<br />在旋身俯拾之際<br />片段的畫面<br />紛呈揪擾<br />記憶所牽引的弧度<br />是兒時我想望的預兆<br /><br />不<br />我不相信<br />我曾經在山陵起伏處<br />坐看霧起雲湧<br />讚詠只許畫中有的蒼鬱美景<br />思緒卻飄移轉度<br />以光之翼之姿<br />沉墮無機、絢麗、須臾的空間風景<br /><br />你應該學習這一切</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113229653000460821?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1130654684434768962005-10-31T06:44:00.000+08:002005-10-30T14:44:46.530+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0699??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0699%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0697??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0697%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0696??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0696%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0695??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0695%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/DSCF0694??????.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/DSCF0694%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-113065468443476896?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1129173071128761422005-10-14T02:11:00.000+08:002005-10-13T11:11:11.133+08:00<div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />剃髮為名<br />轉渡軍儀<br />無嗔無喜<br />合十焚葬<br />縷絲冷暖<br />以玆告別<br />二八八轉<br />及<br />早夭青春<br />一併作誌</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112917307112876142?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1129095112907725682005-10-13T05:00:00.000+08:002005-10-12T13:58:45.573+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/1600/????????????1.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2653/1249/320/%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112909511290772568?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1129003756588069752005-10-12T03:10:00.000+08:002005-10-12T13:12:38.766+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">最近發現的ㄧ個女歌手 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">大抵也算是古人了 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">音線中有種稚淨的童音 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">高音表現不沾不膩 </span><blockquote></blockquote><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;"></span></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">仍是高亢激昂地令人激賞 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">我老想起老殘遊記王小玉說書那段 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">還是那股脆淨最是迷人 </span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">吟哦起來總有爵士或民謠的味道</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112900375658806975?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1126293597173650372005-09-10T03:18:00.000+08:002005-09-10T03:19:57.183+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">漫淹過的夏天<br />只能在記憶裡任憑風化了<br /><br />是怎麼開始<br />卻又這樣結束了<br />折疊於腦中皮層的<br />已經無法分辨這些細細瑣瑣的序列<br /><br />啊<br />是一整個的「濕」<br />鋪天蓋地的濕漉漉<br /><br />颱風頻繁得倏忽過境<br />嘩啦啦漫天的雨<br />一地的泥濘<br />所有天地的潮濕<br />像極了蔡明亮的腐爛與情色<br /><br />不然<br />炙熱無雲的徹底放晴<br />只是晾著<br />便是汗涔涔了<br />所有的輕舉妄動<br />都會招致汗淋的黏膩<br /><br />總是這樣溼答答地<br />竟也過了一個夏天</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112629359717365037?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1125591642294839962005-09-02T15:20:00.000+08:002005-09-02T00:20:42.296+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">小詠，我會死嗎？<br />我從小一直愛太宰<br />這也是你知道的<br />這和我對其他藝術家的愛都不一樣<br />太宰不夠好<br />還來不及偉大就死了<br />還被三島笑「氣弱」<br />但沒關係<br />嘲笑就嘲笑<br />都好<br />嘲笑他的人更是常被遮蔽在某種腐爛的虛偽性裡<br />三島就是<br />我跟太宰是在同一種生命本質裡的<br />小詠<br />我希望我死前我可以再去東京看到他死去的那條河<br />上次你來不及帶我去的…….<br /><br />太宰治最厭惡的就是世人的虛偽性<br />也可說他是死於世人的虛偽性<br />太宰治常說：<br />世人都在裝模作樣<br />世人令他恐懼。</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112559164229483996?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1124465269964988662005-08-20T14:27:00.000+08:002005-08-19T23:27:49.970+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">語言天生宿命似地構成溝通上的錯誤<br />以及<br />不斷歧義分裂造成指涉上的失誤<br />種種都是毋需贅言論述的<br /><br />作為華語（普通話？國語？）為一種母語<br />學習英文以達一種延伸甚至接軌與世界的手段<br />過程的躓跛令人灰心<br />中文發聲追求的是「字正腔圓」的俐落剔透<br />一字一聲 珠璣飽滿 不沾不滯 <br />不該有多餘的音<br />亦不允許尷尬扭曲於字裡行間的怪調濫腔<br />最忌含糊黏滯、語意不清<br />然而<br />英文崇尚的是句意的結構與完整<br />滑順熨貼 一氣呵成<br />連音的形成妥貼地處理了各單字的發聲諧和<br />發不發聲、重音位置，甚至發出單字都陌生的連音<br />全視句子的流暢勻和<br />於是<br />因為句意的雜沓<br />我得接受匪夷所思的音<br />（甚至拗口至無法發聲）<br />不斷造成聽意的誤讀</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112446526996498866?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1123841504374971972005-08-13T09:11:00.000+08:002005-08-12T18:11:44.380+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">最近整理作品集<br />發現自己一直深深著迷乃至自溺無力自拔的<br />便是對於「界線」處理的態勢<br />對於「無際」的禪意美學耽溺不已<br />猶有甚者<br />我粗暴地攪亂模糊曖昧化所謂的「空間自明性」<br />我執固地以為<br />所有的空間氛圍都應該被延伸拉出<br />甚至摺疊反覆<br />即使面臨尷尬的窘境<br />仍然成就了空間的刺激<br />所以<br />我討厭門窗、屋突、欄杆這樣的構件<br />那是不俐落的陋態<br />安藤大片實牆的沉穩<br />密斯大量落地窗的輕盈（乾脆俐落的介面處理）<br />才是我孺慕的境地<br /><br />迷戀高差的調性<br />那是空間轉化最曖曖幽澀了<br />變本加厲者<br />斜坡尤甚階梯<br />那是連續性的轉折<br />空間被毫無破綻地帶出<br />然後破格<br />於垂直縱向（不過迫於機能，老是像纏腳布）<br /><br />我想到折版<br />熱門的空間處理型態（94級?）<br />當然令我傾慕<br />打破了水平垂直的介面<br />空間失控般地延展、自立、懸宕<br />好一個「垃圾場美學」<br /><br />當然<br />面臨這樣議題<br />我總是野心勃勃<br />一派初生之犢挑釁之姿<br />我要處理的<br />是立面跟平面向度的崩垮（恐怕還沒玩到折版那樣喪心）<br />所有的姿態都被我瓦解<br />正交系統的純正美學已然潰散<br />柱樑牆版介面混沌支解<br />果不期然<br />解構的殘魂裊裊<br />依然令我魂牽夢縈、反覆吟哦召喚<br /><br />後來呢<br />故事的演變呢<br />當然要符合機能<br />當然要結構合理<br />當然要妥貼法規<br />當然要如期交圖<br />當然要圖模俱全<br />…………………<br />故事的後來我也納悶著</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112384150437497197?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1122915605955489802005-08-07T16:00:00.000+08:002005-08-07T00:59:32.056+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">『就像牛兒沉靜地睡臥在草原上<br />尾巴卻會在突然間「啪啪」地甩動<br />打死停在肚子上的牛蠅一樣<br />一有機會<br />人們可怕的本體便會在不經意間透過暴怒而顯露出來<br />看到這幅模樣的我<br />老是會感覺一股寒毛直豎般的顫慄<br />這樣的本性或許也是人們得以生存下去的資格之ㄧ吧<br />心念及此<br />我幾乎感受到一股絕望感』<br /><br />『別人給予自己的東西就算再怎麼樣不合意<br />又無法拒絕得了<br />對討厭的東西說不出討厭<br />對喜歡的事物也像偷偷摸摸似地<br />感覺極不愉快<br />整個人悶在一種說不出的恐懼中』 <blockquote></blockquote>「因被深植下無能為力的情慾種籽<br />淨是在嘴裡咒著善惡罪罰<br />無能為力地兀自倉皇<br />則源於不被教導過破壞能力與意志」 <blockquote></blockquote>「活著<br />好辛苦<br />被四面八方的鐵鍊捆綁著<br />稍稍一動便會破皮流血」<br /><br />「我從未在與人爭辯中勝過<br />必輸無疑<br />被擊潰在對方信念之強與自我肯定的可怕下<br />我會沉默不語<br />但仔細想想<br />我也會漸漸發現對方也是一廂情願<br />不是只有自己才有錯<br />然而<br />一想到才剛在口頭爭論上輸過<br />便又要開始吵吵鬧鬧地爭執<br />心理便覺得陰森森的<br />對我來說<br />口頭爭執就像出手打架一樣<br />會永遠留有不快的憎惡」<br /><br />「這麼說好了<br />基於心中有許多『想煩而不好明著煩』的事<br />我不得不裝的『表面上很快樂』<br /><br />裝腔作勢、嚴肅正經就是件好事嗎？<br />總之<br />我受不了認真過頭、掃興無聊的事」</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112291560595548980?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1122749676833916852005-08-01T05:56:00.000+08:002005-07-31T02:54:36.836+08:00剛踏出職場 <blockquote></blockquote>就跌了大跤 <blockquote></blockquote>最近日子沮喪的幾乎難以訴諸文字了 <blockquote></blockquote>不過老天不至於太慘忍 <blockquote></blockquote>因緣際會我倒是看了麥田捕手 <blockquote></blockquote>以前不知怎地對於世界名著云云 <blockquote></blockquote>老是一副高姿態不屑一顧似的 <blockquote></blockquote>總之 <blockquote></blockquote>麥田捕手很棒呢 <blockquote></blockquote>關於最脆弱與最強悍都被道盡了 <blockquote></blockquote>我看著看著竟還流下了眼淚 <blockquote></blockquote>這倒是好久沒有的閱讀體驗 <blockquote></blockquote>還有阿 <blockquote></blockquote>我的魯莽台南行 <blockquote></blockquote>感謝基豪宗道聖荃有為東洋願意放下手邊的工作 <blockquote></blockquote>陪我看電影 <blockquote></blockquote>自己也是明瞭大家也都各自有各自的事要忙 <blockquote></blockquote>還這麼捧場 <blockquote></blockquote>這世界其實沒那麼糟的^^<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112274967683391685?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1121678629767841672005-07-19T08:23:00.000+08:002005-07-18T17:23:49.773+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">那樣的自殺畫面如夢似幻，栩栩如生<br />乃至於我們總錯幻以為自己必在很久以前<br />曾親臨那自殺現場，目睹那慢動作的死亡演出<br />（惟有慢動作才能造形出一種有條不紊，嚴密控制每一靜止姿勢的祭舞氣氛）<br /><br />像三島<br />是在電視直播的全日本眼前，切開自己腹部肌肉<br />持續鍛鍊了十幾年的精實腹肌<br />就是為了這一刻演出<br />倘使電視畫面特寫，那把刃光四射的武士鋼刀<br />慢慢貼近並將屏息刺入割開的<br />是一具中年男子沉甸甸白呼呼肚臍四周還一圈黑毛的胖大肚子<br />效果應該減弱許多吧<br /><br />或是川端<br />吸煤氣自殺，這使他的臉容<br />在死後仍像羞澀少女微微泛著粉紅<br />據說這是唯一一種讓死亡形貌比生前還要美麗的自死手法<br /><br />再不就是投河的太宰治<br />我們對他們的死狀親膩又熟悉<br />像曾為之擦洗屍體的親人<br /><br />再來就是您的自死<br />怎麼回事？<br />忍不住想這樣問您<br />當時究竟發生了什麼事？<br />在最後一刻的那個房間裡，究竟出了什麼問題<br />使你選擇用剪刀刺進心臟這樣的死法<br />那麼暴烈，那麼有效率<br />那麼一絲替屍體保留體面的念頭也不曾動過的死法<br /><br /> 駱以軍---「遣悲懷」<br />註：「您」是指邱妙津</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112167862976784167?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1121599775374186052005-07-19T07:53:00.000+08:002005-07-18T16:52:53.776+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">為什麼會對死亡如此著迷呢 <blockquote></blockquote>因為神秘未知嗎 <blockquote></blockquote>抑或它不可逆的淒絕 <blockquote></blockquote>又或者 <blockquote></blockquote>它破壞了時間的法則 <blockquote></blockquote>實現了永恆的神話</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112159977537418605?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1121679822001700302005-07-18T20:43:00.000+08:002005-07-18T17:43:42.990+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">如果從這一步邁出<br />也許這黏膩風景可以望穿<br />芸芸游離的魂魄<br />鮮紅艷魅持續開闔<br /><br />奏鳴起輓歌<br />孩提的吟哦阿<br />原來<br />童話幻境成就了嚴厲的負擔<br />駝成了這姿態<br />恰襯這天際<br />君豈不知<br />鑲進此刻的視角是沉絕的宿命阿<br /><br />迫人雲靄<br />蒸進空氣裡<br />遠方漂流招魂幡<br />誰來勾勒攝人的拋物線呢？</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112167982200170030?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1121418999854097832005-07-16T08:16:00.000+08:002005-07-15T17:16:39.856+08:00<blockquote></blockquote><ul><li><span style="font-size:85%;">可以睡到中午</span></li></ul><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></blockquote><ul><li><span style="font-size:85%;">晚上可以不睡覺</span></li></ul><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></blockquote><ul><li><span style="font-size:85%;">不必裝忙</span></li></ul><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112141899985409783?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1121418548833078752005-07-16T08:09:00.000+08:002005-07-15T17:09:08.836+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">是體制的謬誤 <blockquote></blockquote>還是自己本身的問題 <blockquote></blockquote>我一直以為 <blockquote></blockquote>我們付錢請公務人員服務我們 <blockquote></blockquote>是理所當然無庸置疑的 <blockquote></blockquote>只是不斷辨證的結果 <blockquote></blockquote>事實似乎趨近於 <blockquote></blockquote>「幫你服務已經很好了，你還嫌勒」 <blockquote></blockquote>莫怪乎公務人員一副跋扈的態勢 <blockquote></blockquote>雖說「領多少錢，做多少事」已是天 方夜譚 <blockquote></blockquote>不過就服務這件事來說實在也沒什麼難度 <blockquote></blockquote>憑什麼資格這麼囂張呢 <blockquote></blockquote>是壟斷的優勢在作祟吧 <blockquote></blockquote>不過 <blockquote></blockquote>就「推卸責任」而言 <blockquote></blockquote>畢竟還是生存必需的 <blockquote></blockquote>還是得跟公務人員討教 <blockquote></blockquote>雖說自己已相當熟練 <blockquote></blockquote>不過已臻化境的地步 <blockquote></blockquote>仍要多學習</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112141854883307875?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120883209695663742005-07-10T03:24:00.000+08:002005-07-09T12:26:49.700+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">Zaha跟Morphosis的破碎混沌<br />一直深受我其愛<br />不過Morphosis似乎是久聞了<br />記憶貶值的不勝唏噓<br />Zaha贏得普力茲<br />大概還熱騰騰<br />應該是正確的<br />但某種虛榮層面<br />是流於俗氣的<br /><br />Scarpa的材料用得令人激賞<br />老是嗅聞一股殘存記憶的華麗<br />細部也玩的精采<br />不過常常又讓我覺得矯枉過正<br /><br />Koolhaas量體的堆疊<br />像玩積木似的<br />總是粗暴而醜陋<br />不過挾帶強勢的媒體<br />不知怎麼搞的<br />竟愈發好看起來<br /><br />至於安藤<br />總覺得難為情<br />早期的作品<br />對於場所精神的營造<br />透漏迷人的儀式性<br />大概是材料與尺度的掌握<br />超脫了物質性達成了某精神向度<br />也許太成功了<br />不斷再現的結果<br />有淪為浮濫之虞<br /><br />當然<br />我是沒有任何資格批論以上大師的<br />不過<br />嘴賤嘛<br />也實在不想扯一些可有可無的客套話<br />總之<br />愈是做不到落差愈大的<br />批評也就愈是趾高氣昂</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112088320969566374?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120838251554043432005-07-09T14:57:00.000+08:002005-07-08T23:57:31.560+08:00<div align="left"><span style="font-size:85%;">「國中導師在很久以前就跟我媽說，你孩子什麼都事不關己的態度，很適合當公務人員」</span></div><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></blockquote><div align="right"><span style="font-size:85%;"> Posted by Losepacific at June 20,2005 </span></div><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> </p></blockquote><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">不過我想不管做什麼</span><blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">「裝忙」才是首要任務吧</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112083825155404343?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120711629589575422005-07-07T12:44:00.000+08:002005-07-07T12:47:09.590+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">當流行音樂有喚醒意識和凝聚認同的動員潛能時<br />它也可能被音樂工業吸納且商品化<br />對具有反叛性格的樂手而言<br />最大的難題當然是如何在唱片工業體制下保有自主性<br />對樂迷而言<br />當他們聆聽具有政治意涵的音樂<br />參與宣揚社會議題的演唱會時<br />是否真的接收了那些政治訊息<br />更進一步來看<br />這些本質上是商品的流行樂是否反而轉移了青年的反叛能量<br /><br /><br />我們很難賦予搖滾樂的論述及實踐固定不變的意涵<br />搖滾樂的可能性端視其社會脈絡<br />以及創作者與閱聽人的互動<br />所以毋寧將其視為一個自主文化與文化工業不斷鬥爭的場域<br /> Sounds and Fury--張鐵志</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112071162958957542?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120643989540608422005-07-06T17:35:00.000+08:002005-07-06T17:59:49.546+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">不管多麼糟</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">只要還年輕 <blockquote></blockquote>就覺得還好 <blockquote></blockquote>不管是多麼了不起的事 <blockquote></blockquote>如果已經垂老矣矣了 <blockquote></blockquote>就真的還好了 <blockquote></blockquote><blockquote></blockquote> <blockquote></blockquote>如果在年輕的時候 <blockquote></blockquote>時間都花在一直感歎青春的老去(不過她的確是一直往前跑的哦) <blockquote></blockquote>那就真的眼睜睜看著她老去了 <blockquote></blockquote>一點辦法也沒有 <blockquote></blockquote>以資安慰的大概只有回憶了 <blockquote></blockquote> <blockquote>二十歲的健康青年，如果想著「反正上了年紀之後就會小腹突出，變成禿頭，然後得肝病死掉」這樣的事，原本做得到的事情也會變得無能為力了。 懷念的1980 --村上春樹</blockquote></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112064398954060842?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120447734547389912005-07-05T02:30:00.000+08:002005-07-04T11:28:54.550+08:00<p>我喜歡歧<span>義的美 </p><blockquote></blockquote><p>正統的美<span></span></span>一如偽善的人心</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>我需要異端作為武器<br /></p><blockquote></blockquote><p>攻殼魁儡人偶的扭曲姿態</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>佳麗村完美的噁心比例</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>阿推腐爛的頹敗美</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>矢澤愛自溺式的絕美</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>椎名林檎的淫聲怪調</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>Kurt絕望的撕裂嗓喉</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>巴奈來自靈魂的聲音</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>張愛玲極端憤世的潑辣</p><blockquote></blockquote><p>村上春樹漠然的疏離<br /></p><blockquote></blockquote><p>這世界還是相當美好</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112044773454738991?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120446720799347972005-07-05T02:12:00.000+08:002005-07-04T11:12:00.800+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">以我目前的狀況<br />說實在的<br />不應該逞強讀著卡爾維諾的書<br />精神都快黏不住肉體了<br />讀著「如果在冬夜，一個旅人」<br />真的是頭腦幾乎要脹裂了<br />如果要詳列細節的話<br />就好像是讀英文書的感覺<br />所有的字句明明白白攤在那邊<br />明白到不用翻字典就能「喔！」的程度<br />可是一旦組合起來<br />就會發生「咦！那到底是怎麼回事」的悲劇<br />然後我那沒來由的偏執<br />就會讓情節阻澀不前<br />大概像是練習某知名3D軟體一樣的情況吧<br /><br />張愛玲的世故總是很容易地挑起我的興致<br />這本「赤地之戀」算是徹徹底底的反共文學了<br />不過老實說<br />太過壁壘分明的下場<br />竟讓我嫌惡起來<br />我開始懷念起「秧歌」<br />尤其讀過王德威的評論<br />增添蒙了一層陰森恐怖之感<br />更加迷人了<br /><br />至於村上春樹的「懷念的一九八零年代」<br />我想最適合推薦給患有時差而又無論如何想進行閱讀這行為的人閱讀了<br />整本書幾乎不需要動任何腦筋就可以完全融會貫通<br />大概因為是漫談、隨筆之故<br />村上式的幽默在字裡行間變本加厲了起來<br />所以也不要太在乎武斷、鄉愿等等<br />畢竟是出版業嘛<br />如果認為閱讀ㄧ定要獲得明確的什麼之類的話<br />這本書應該也可以滿足這方面的需求<br />總之是描述八零年代的集體記憶<br />不過仍然是非常強勢的大美國姿態<br />這點我倒是不置可否<br /><br />還有一本「聲音與憤怒」<br />是沿著歷史脈絡、相當理論的書<br />若不是對搖滾有興趣的話<br />讀起來像教科書<br />不過<br />應該讀任何書都是這樣吧</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112044672079934797?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1120446291342431422005-07-05T02:05:00.000+08:002005-07-04T11:04:51.346+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">大概也預期到了<br />不過撐了這些天還是沒有改善<br />與這裡的一切都無法接軌<br />最嚴重的還是睡眠問題<br />六年寵養的日夜顛倒習慣<br />在這邊是不被允許的<br />我的睡眠被嚴重切割斷裂<br />精神狀態幾乎呈現漂浮<br />鎮日像個遊魂<br />無法著力從事需要動腦筋的事<br />影響到生理<br />動作變得遲滯<br />時間還是一樣殘忍<br /><br />大家都聽不懂我在說什麼<br />我也聽不懂他們在說什麼<br />不過還是拼命說著就是了<br />這彷彿是語言的宿命<br /><br />我像是隔著一層膜<br />與外界互通著<br />所有的事物人情都不太真切<br />也許是睡眠的關係<br />所有的感官知覺都顯得延宕<br />好像偏離了某個標準值<br /><br />我靠著大量閱讀餵養時間的需索<br />深怕這是最後防線了<br />如果終將不敵<br />恐怕整個人都會潰散吧<br /><br />週遭的一切<br />都願意以變調的節奏接納我的重新嵌入<br />反而造成我的壓力<br />我疲於奔命於適應這社會該有的姿態<br />卻愈發格格不入<br />生理與心理狀態的兩敗俱傷<br />應該是關鍵吧<br /><br />網路是我目前冀求的唯一救贖<br />我對她的依賴遠超過我的想像<br />現實中頹壞的肉身欲求<br />都可以在虛擬的現世烏托邦中獲得解放<br />這是無止盡的輪迴<br />我已毫無招架地被支配奴役了<br />內心大概這麼想著<br />「歡迎攻殼化時代」</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-112044629134243142?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1119852458748256052005-06-28T05:08:00.000+08:002005-06-27T14:07:38.753+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">我一直這麼相信著</span> <blockquote></blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">你最好也相信</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-111985245874825605?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1119844890365564982005-06-27T15:02:00.000+08:002005-06-27T13:26:42.260+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">要是太熟了 <blockquote></blockquote>就是該離開的時候 <blockquote></blockquote>不然就是推自己逼視不堪入目的困境 <blockquote></blockquote>眼睜睜束手無策地 <blockquote></blockquote>瞧著發腐臭 <blockquote></blockquote>那種滋味真是打從心底的難受 <blockquote></blockquote>所以 趁著賞味期限 <blockquote></blockquote>再見了 台南</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-111984489036556498?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1119790797700676732005-06-26T20:43:00.000+08:002005-06-26T20:59:57.706+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">大概最多只能五個人吧 <blockquote></blockquote>這是轎車的宿命 <blockquote></blockquote>其實四個人是妥貼的值 <blockquote></blockquote>不會有人落單 <blockquote></blockquote>因為這世界虛榮地像為兩個人設計的 <blockquote></blockquote>最好不要有情侶檔 <blockquote></blockquote>總覺得那是尷尬的淵藪 <blockquote></blockquote>至於n對情侶檔相約旅遊(n>1) <blockquote></blockquote>是我一直匪夷所思的 <blockquote></blockquote>天數當然是媚俗地三天兩夜 <blockquote></blockquote>旅遊興致的保鮮期 <blockquote></blockquote>好像是這麼一回事 <blockquote></blockquote>畢竟有趣的事情禁不起時間的考驗</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-111979079770067673?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13968662.post-1119789053086177382005-06-26T20:16:00.000+08:002005-06-26T20:30:53.090+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">我的嘴巴很賤 <blockquote></blockquote>好像是天生的本領 <blockquote></blockquote><blockquote></blockquote></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13968662-111978905308617738?l=dulldudnirvana.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>nirvanahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07309901054990307035noreply@blogger.com1